So we're nearly halfway into the current season of Doctor Who, which I'm going to talk about without spoilers, because I'm good like that. I just thought I'd put some of my musings down now so I can laugh at myself later…

Firstly, I like Capaldi's "darker" Doctor, but I sometimes find him hard to watch. I like dark, I like edgy, but the scope of change in this regeneration feels a little… much. And the reason it feels a bit much is the occasional flips into manic pixie Doctor (the (Nu?) Doctor has always done this; but here it feels too big a contrast). In some ways, Capaldi's Doctor feels closer to Eccleston (or, ahem, Sherlock) rather than Tennant or Smith: disengaged, dangerous and disinterested in little details like body count – and this works better when it isn't contrasted with bubbly babbling.

Secondly, bullying Clara. I don't take kindly to this. I didn't wildly warm to her in her first season (which I put down to the Impossible Girl arc; I'm enjoying getting to know her better in this season), but it's not only demeaning it's downright ridiculous to have anyone mock Clara's looks given how jaw-droppingly pretty she is. Perhaps this is meant to be the sort of gentle teasing really old friends can get away with (and Clara is largely treating it with the disdain it deserves), but I don't like how it plays – girls don't need help being insecure about what counts as beautiful, thanks – let alone from the Doctor.

Thirdly, Danny Pink. Thankfully I've found some pro-Moffat voices online as well as the strident criticism that most of my feed typically channels my way, which is reassuring me that I'm not the only one who is enjoying Clara's love interest (and her very Clara control of continuing weekly dates trips with the Doctor vs her day job and love life). It's refreshing to have a Companion interested in something other than the Doctor – and it's entertaining to realise that the Doctor gets jealous. Platonically, obviously. Which may go some way to explaining the bullying, but doesn't make me forgive it.

But what I'm really struggling with – not least because I've been rewatching NuWho on Prime – is that maybe, just maybe, Tom Baker isn't my Doctor any more*. Sadly, neither is Capaldi. I didn't particularly enjoy Eccleston, and while I'm enjoying Tennant ENORMOUSLY on my rewatch, what I'm looking forward to (and missing, while watching Capaldi) is the gangly man in the fez and the bowtie. Dammit. When did that happen?

*This is patently untrue. The only bit of the 50th that made me tear up was the cameo. But he's got competition.